About a month ago, my friend Spencer called in his backup (me) and asked if I would play the fiddle and sing alongside him during Historic Roswell’s last Alive After 5 event of the year. I hesitated for a brief moment, and reluctantly said, “Sure.”
Reluctantly I replied because I am currently working through stage fright aka my nemesis that has been with me since high school. Strangely enough, I can speak in front of hundreds of people with a little discomfort but mostly ease yet I find it incredibly mentally difficult to play my violin in front of even one person.
That doesn’t mean I haven’t played in front of people. It just takes some liquid courage to do so. 😉 Shout out to Mrs. Hardee.
So over the last two weeks or so, I’ve been familiarizing myself with the songs we used to play together back in the day. In addition to the oldies, I’ve been learning new ones.
The new songs I’m learning don’t have sheet music for the fiddle parts. Trust me. I’ve looked. What I have to do to learn these new songs is listen to them and try to play what I hear.
Last night I completely surprised myself. I actually took enjoyment in listening to a song and interpreting what I heard. This might sound silly to you, but you see, I used to think I had to play these intros and solos exactly the way they sound in the recordings. In learning an awesome song by the Steep Canyon Rangers called Call The Captain, I sincerely took enjoyment in listening and interpreting, not listening and copying.
I’m adding these little moments of enjoyment to my toolbox for managing my stage fright. If you want to hear Spencer and I play this Thursday, venture on up or down to Roswell and come find us. I don’t think I’m ready to tell you exactly where we’ll be though. 🙂